it’s time i say something on this thing.

already having holidays til Jan(!) and i’ve been working my ass off. On a so not a lighter note, i’ve concluded that i might be ending my 2009 off with no bang. cos the most anticipated party that i’ve been waiting for all year round (zoukout) is out and strike off my list! -.-  (david, you just hafta tie the knot on that sat right? ughh) then again, i’ve been occupying me time with lots of luvinn with babygirlsss and partyingggggg. :D i really love my single life too muchhh. haha.

i am really going to plan many, many picnic outings @ sentosa. so babygs with your bfs, if you want to, plan your schedule carefully this december cos i’m looking for some sunny time and beach lovin’ sooon.

in the meantime, care to join for ladies night tmr? and thurs?
i know, i know. i can’t help it.

” You are my heaven on earth,
You were my last, my first.
And then I hear this voice inside,
Ave maria. “

last week to Zirca was really devastating. how can a whole group of people bailed on me and planned to go Zirca at the same time. it’s the whole damn bunch man. ugh. and i’m sorry to Zana cos i spoilt her night. i know i shouldn’t have. Am gg to make it up to her. Planning for some doubling tonight! :D hoping i’d be okay tho cos i am dead sick right now and i hate this god damn feeling. i have work tmr too you know. sighs.

3 months.

Zirca; Tiesto’s Album Launch. Needs more of this.

how i wish i could pack my bags and leave. how i wish i didn’t have that much faith in you cos i haven’t been feeling this disappointment for very long and coming from you, you know how much it’s F taking its toll on me. day after day man. night after night.
i am giving up.

I’ve had it. I don’t know what else these people still want from me. I have no one supporting me in this house. I am fucking solely supporting myself. and there you are, happily just put me in school and what? just decide that i am old enough and could fend for myself? fuck you. i’ve tried to do that for a month plus and where does that lead me? No fucking where! I am not near in good terms with you and i am not excelling in school either. All because of you, you fucktup person. You don’t fucking get it right? You still think the whole world only listens to your command. Oh and i bet you hated me when i didn’t listen to you at all. But look at me, what’s there to listen to? Like what is the whole fucking point in you putting me to school? I actually thought that I could trust you and things might be better for us. But I was wrong, I’ve never had any faith in you anyways and right now, it confirms the fact that I never will.

Fuck you, fuck my life and yours.